Last Days

Yes. My decision is final. Irrevocable.

Staying might be a good idea for where I am right now is a comfort zone. But just like what William Shedd said, "A ship in harbor is safe but that is not what ships are built for." I know and believe I am not made for here permanently- that something bigger and better is waiting for me. And I have to grab it SOON or else it will come to pass right before my eyes.

Leaving is not an option at all because the choice is already made. This is one of the hardest decisions I made and I am proud of it. It makes me realize that somehow, I have reached a maturity level wherein I think less of myself and more of the people who will be affected. Yes, there are people who may get shocked because of this, but I know I really have to do this. Their reactions don't matter anymore. It's time to face the reality that I am not happy with how my life is as of the moment. I am like a passenger waiting for my trip home. And home is waiting for me...

Clock ticks and so I move on. I am counting my staying days with high hopes and palms together, praying that whatever happens, God grant me peace in my resolve. Someday, my heart will find what it looks for. Or maybe it won't. Instead, it will find something better. 

Hoping..